A man in his 40s is now contemplating whether he should continue living or end it all after he saw his career and finances suffer a huge setback.
The heartbreaking confession was made in an anonymous post on Facebook, where the OP poured his heart out and recounted how his once idyllic life quickly turned into shambles.
Earned 5-figures as a manager
In the post, the OP wrote that he once worked in sales and slowly climbed up the ranks, where he was appointed as a manager and had a lucrative five-figure income.
However, he now finds himself enduring long, exhausting hours while working as an e-hailing driver for the past three years, leading him to wonder how it all went wrong for him.
Back then, everyone around me thought I had a bright future and I believed that too. But looking back now, it all feels like a distant past as the person I am today has nothing left.
“I no longer have the income I used to earn and I drive until I’m exhausted every day, where what what I earn is barely enough to get by.”
Guilt-ridden over debts
Aside from this, the OP said he’s also heavily burdened by the debts he owes to both his parents and friends, be it in the financial or relational aspect.
“I owe debts to the bank, friends, and relatives. What I owe isn’t just money—it’s also the kindness and trust people have shown me.
“I know I’ve disappointed a lot of people, but the person I’ve disappointed the most is myself. More than 40 years have passed, and it feels like every major decision I’ve made has been the wrong one,” he lamented.
The OP also expressed guilt for letting his elderly parents down, whom he said have been his biggest pillar of support.
“They’re getting old and their health is getting worse. The only thing I can still do is take them out for a nice meal every day. But whenever I see them being happy, I actually feel even worse because I know I’ve given them so little.
“They’ve always wanted to travel overseas for many years and talked about it countless times. Until now, I’m still not able to do so and this is my biggest regret.”
Time to end it all?
Feeling hopeless over his situation, the OP said he plans to push himself even harder at work and earn more money so his family can live a comfortable life before he ends his life.
He added that he had even thought about his funeral arrangements from time to time, which occasionally leaves him unnerved.
I’m truly exhausted. It feels as though staying alive only means continuing to be a burden to the people around me.
“If I’ve reached this age and still haven’t accomplished anything while making my parents worry, would it actually be better if I left earlier?” he asked.
In the comment section, netizens urged the OP to not give up so quickly and to instead cherish his family and turn the negative thoughts into “fuel” that will help him turn his life around.
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